Day 21: What is one of your favorite TV shows and why?

My Favorite TV show is a hard choice to make. I love so many shows of different genres. One TV shows that I can watch no matter how many times I’ve seen it is How I Met Your Mother. I  just stumbled upon it a few years ago and instantly became obsessed. I then made my boyfriend watch the entire series, and before the series ended Joel and I would watch it every week. I don’t know what it is about HIMYM but I love it. I love the actors and characters they play so much.

Day 19: What’s your biggest regret in life

My biggest regret in life is not telling people how much they mean to me. I constantly think about my Aunt that pass when I was 10 and often wonder if she really knew how much she meant to me. She wasn’t just someone who would get me the things my mother said no to, she wasn’t just the owner of the purse I dumped out on the floor every sundy to examine the contents, she wasn’t just someone who I expected toys from every time she came to nan’s to do laundry,  she wasn’t just someone whose stuff I thought was cool to play with, and I often wonder if she knew that.. Yes, she did all of those things and much more for me. She introduced me to photography, which I still love, she taught me to follow my dreams, no matter how crazy they may seem, and she did all of that while still seeming like the coolest person in the entire world to me. And my biggest regret is that as a young child I never thanked her for everything she did. Sure I probably said please and thank you, and I love you whenever I saw her but did that really tell her how much she meant to me. Would she believe that I carry around a simple pin that she made in college, or that I got and image of that pin permanently tattooed on my body along with her signature. Would she believe that when I feel at my absolute lowest, and I have nowhere else to turn, all I wish I could do was talk to her… I don’t know. I’ll never be able to know. And that is why not expressing how much someone means to me is my biggest regret. I’m still really bad at this as a young adult, I’ve had people walk out of my life without me letting them know how I feel, but her..  My aunt, is the one that I still 11 years later, regret the most…

***Don’t forget to check out Bubbly Bubbie Blog tomorrow for Day 20: How important do you think education is?***

Day 17: List your highs and lows in the past year

For some reason, the year 2016 has been made into a meme of lows for everyone, but when I really look back on it, it’s hard to find lows for myself. I had a lot of great things happen for me.

  • I turned 21 and had an amazing birthday weekend with some of my very best friends
  • I got a new baby sister Addie
  • I successfully took two summer courses while working crazy hours and still managing to find time for fun
  • I took on driving
  • I’m finishing out probably one of the most successful semesters I’ve had since like sophomore year of high school
  • I’ve spent tons of time with the people that mean the most to me in life

That’s just to name a few things… Finding lows is really hard because all of my lows are in my head… There was a point this past year where I really shut everyone out. I spent hours on the phone with my little sister just telling her everything I was thinking and feeling. Things I probably wouldn’t dare tell anyone else. I got to a point where I felt like I couldn’t talk to my friends, my boyfriend, or even my mom because just no one understood me but my sister, and honestly I don’t think she understood either. Really I just think she tried to understand because she was worried about me. All this began happening around the same time I kind of stopped writing my blog… I didn’t know how to express my emotions without feeling vulnerable to people who personally knew me and read my blog. I don’t know if it was my relationship being a little rocky, or school just draining me of all my effort, or even things being tense with my mother for a bit, but I just wasn’t myself. This would probably be the biggest low I’ve had in a long time, not even knowing who I was, what I wanted, where I wanted to go with my life, who my friends were. All of these things were right in front of me, but my own dark cloud over my head wouldn’t let me see it.

I wouldn’t trade the people in my life for anything in the world! I have an amazing family who love me to death, I have a boyfriend whose been through hell and high water with me, his family that treats me like the daughter they never had, and some of the best friends a girl could ask for (some who even read my blog when they see it;)) I know I was a bit moody, and not myself, but I wanna thank all of you, Mom, Alisyn, Joel, Lauren, and bunches of others for loving me until I was through exploring myself and being all meh.

I’d say my biggest high was having all of these people here to get me through the low, whether they know they did or not!

***Don’t forget to check out Bubbly Bubbie Blog tomorrow for Day 18: What book could you read over and over again***

Day 15: 15 interesting facts about yourself

Oh goodness 15 interesting facts about me…How about we just make it 15 random questions!

1.What’s a nickname only your family calls you? Scoob, J, Bug, Sissy
2.What’s a weird habit of yours? I love getting the sock fuzzies from between my toes at the end of the day and I can’t go to bed unless I do
3.Do you have any weird phobias? I do not like tube waterslides for fear that my tube will come out from under me and I will be stuck in the tube slide
4.What’s a song you secretly LOVE to blast && belt out when you’re alone? Gotta Find You from the Camp Rock soundtrack
5.What’s one celebrity you wish you could be? Carrie Underwood duh!
6.What’s one of your nervous habits? I bite the insides of my mouth when I’m overwhelmed or nervous about something
7.What side of your bed do you sleep on? I sleep mostly in the middle but on the left side of my body
8.What was your first stuffed animal && it’s name? I know she wasn’t my first by my stuffed white cat Crystal is the first one I remember
9. What’s drink you always order at starbucks? Iced passion tea with lemonade and sweetener is always my go to.
10.What’s the beauty rule you preach, but never actually practice? I always tell my little sister to take her make up off before bed every night, but there have been days where I sleep in my make up and just wear it all day the next day
11.Which way do you face in the shower? I face the water when I wash my body and face, but face away when I wash my hair and shave
12.Do you have any weird body skills? no my body’s pretty boring, all I can do is put my feet behind my head
13.What’s your favorite comfortfood/food  thats bad but you love to eat it anyway? Deep Fried Pickles from Rutter gas station
14.What’s a phrase or exclamation you always say? I don’t say a phrase often, usually, I start saying hip lingo like “fleek” and “lit” ironically but then it slowly becomes meaningful haha
15. Time to sleep- what are you ACTUALLY wearing? I usually wear a bigger t-shirt that either mine that’s too big, or my boyfriends and depending on the weather sweatpants or Nike pros

***Don’t forget to check out Bubbly Bubbie Blog tomorrow for Day 16: What are your views on mainstream music*** I feel bad that she’s getting all the serious ones so show her some love too!

Bonus Day! Day 14: What is your earliest memory?

So Alisyn forgot to prepare for today so I’m filling in!

My earliest memory is something that I just was talking about with my boyfriend not too long ago. My earliest memory is from when I was three years old. I remember standing on the boardwalk in Ocean City Maryland. I have no idea who was standing around me, but we were on a family trip so I assume it was them. I remember standing on the wall along the edge of the sand where people sit. Wearing just a t-shirt over my bathing suit, and sandals. I remember jumping off the wall down into the sand. And that’s really it.. as a small child you can only remember so much. I know that day I got my stuffed white cat from the Kite Loft store. My Aunt had bought a stuffed animal for my two cousins and I. If I’m correct Andrew got a frog and Nicky got a dog. I still have that stuffed cat, she’s been through a lot with me and to this day sleeps in my bed every night.

Now, my mother remembers this event way better than I do. It was the first time her baby was at the beach. Actually, this summer when we were there for my 21st birthday she took me to the exact spot. It’s little things like that, that kids remember. I don’t remember anything thing else about my first trip to the beach, and I’m sure all of my family tried to make it something special. When all they needed to do was let me play in the sand and buy me a new toy to make me happy.

***Don’t forget to check out Bubbly Bubbie Blog Friday for Day 16: What are your views on mainstream music***

Day 13: Where would you like to visit/live one day

Anyone who knows me knows that my heart is in the Magic Kingdom! I love everything Disney and someday I plan to go there. I want to experience everything there before I have kids and then someday take my children there as well. I have visited Disney World in California but that isn’t the Magic Kingdom to satisfy my desires! I want to see Epcot, Animal Kingdom, and Cinderella’s Castel! So if I could go anywhere in the world, it would be Disneyland where dreams come true!

Where I want to live is an interesting question. I don’t have an end place like some people, frankly, I don’t have somewhere I want to end up.. I just want to have a house that is all mine and I can make it the home I’ve always dreamed of.

***Don’t forget to check out Bubbly Bubbie Blog tomorrow for Day 14: What is your earliest memory?***

Day 11: Put your music on shuffle and write down the first 10 songs (explain if needed)

I’ll admit I’m a little afraid to do this because my music library is EVERYWHERE but here goes nothing…

  1. Still in love with you” by The Jonas Brothers
  2. If I didn’t have you” by Thompson Squared
  3. The Pretender” by Foo Fighters
  4. She don’t love you“by Eric Paslay
  5. How do you like me now?” by Toby Keith
  6. Should’ve been a cowboy” by Toby Keith
  7. What do you mean?” by Justin Beiber
  8. Hold On” by The Jonas Brothers
  9. Dessert” by Dawin
  10. For the first time in forever (reprise)” From Frozen

Not bad if I do say so myself.. I promise that I listen to way more than just the Jonas Brothers and Toby Keith haha.

***Don’t forget to check out Bubbly Bubbie Blog tomorrow for Day 12: Bullet point your whole day***

Day 9: If you could have any job in the world what would it be?

I have written about this before, but if I could have any job in the world, it would be the one I’m currently working towards. I can not wait to be a teacher someday. This semester has shown me how hard it really is to be a teacher now in 2016. If I only had to do what was required 20 years ago I wouldn’t be stressing this much. I know I am going to be a great teacher someday, I have had many veteran teachers praise me for that multiple times, so I’m not afraid of getting there. It’s the getting to that point that is really killing me. I have always struggled with procrastination and preparedness, and  nearing the end of my education that is really kicking my butt. I am not the best at comprehension and I never have been all through grade school. These faults don’t mean I will be a bad teacher, they just mean it will be a little more difficult for me. In no way does that mean it isn’t what I still want. Years of playing school, writing papers just so I could pretend grade them, changing my mind on my concentration many times , have taught me that I should be a teacher! I will get there in due time, so what if it’s going to take me five years of college, so what if there aren’t any jobs around when I graduate… I will teach and help young minds grow someday!

***Don’t forget to check out Bubbly Bubbie Blog tomorrow for Day 10: What is your guilty pleasure***