Day 23: Post 5 pictures of celebrities you find attractive

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Neil Partick Harris

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Luke Bryan

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Darren Criss

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Leonardo DiCaprio

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Zac Efron

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Day 1: Discuss your current relationship

Well, I don’t really know that there is to discuss haha. I met Joel in 10th grade in math class and the rest is history..But for real. In 10th grade, we met through a mutual friend and we became really great friends ourselves. We were texting and sitting with each other in other classes besides math. Throughout this time, I was dating another boy but was ultimately crushing on Joel. Over the next year, our relationship was filled with innocent texting conversations, tweeting back and forth to each other, and meeting up between classes just to talk for a few moments. I went through a break up with that boy I was dating but did not tell Joel because he had already let it slip that he thought he might love me, and I was in no place to jump right back into a relationship. For a few months, we just hung out and talked until I was finally ready to have a new boyfriend.. and here we are almost 5 years later. Now we spend a lot of time apart because of me being at school three hours away, but every day he makes me feel just as loved as if I were there. At this point, we’ve had many ups and downs, good days and some of the worst, and everyone’s favorite questions is “when are you two getting married?”. Joel is my best friend and I don’t need to be married to him to love him or for him to know how much he means to me. Someday when we have the money and time to be married we will be, but for now, I’m perfectly content just dreaming of being Mrs. Joel Anthony Brozovic someday as I fill up my many wedding Pinterest boards with impossible wedding plans.

(Pictured is us a month or two into dating back in the spring or 2012 next to us just last week celebrating our 5th thanksgiving together.. not much has changed except camera quality and we look a heck of a lot less awkward next to eachother)

***Don’t forget to check out Bubbly Bubbie Blog tomorrow for Day 2: Where would you like to be in 10 years?

Happy Mother’s Day

Collage_Fotor.jpgFirst off Happy Mothers Day to a mom of any form! Whether you’re a mom with small children, a mom with adults, a mom of angel babies, a mom who hasn’t had their baby yet, a mom of a friend group, or even a mom of fur babies.. your an amazing mom! It takes a person with special qualities to be a mother, and even though the child doesn’t always act like it or show it, they would be completely lost without you! I took it upon myself  to ask a few people at different ages some questions about their moms…. here’s what they had to say.

The Questions:

  1. Are you close with your mom?
  2. What’s one word you would use to describe your mom?
  3. What’s one thing you wish you could do for your mom?
  4. What does your mom deserve more than anything in the world?
  5. Do you thank your mom for everything she does for you?
    1. (If No) Will you start to now?
  6. Do you know what you would do without your mom?
  7. What does the word mom mean to you?
  8. Would you change your mom?

Early Teens

  1. Are you close with your mom?  Yeah
  2. What’s one word you would use to describe your mom? Funny
  3. What’s one thing you wish you could do for your mom? Have money
  4. What does your mom deserve more than anything in the world? Money
  5. Do you thank your mom for everything she does for you? Yeah
  6. Do you know what you would do without your mom? No, be dead, I’d die in a hole somewhere.
  7. What does the word mom mean to you? I don’t know… Guardian Protector Person
  8. Would you change your mom? No

Later Teens

  1. Are you close with your mom? Yes
  2. What’s one word you would use to describe your mom? Caring
  3. What’s one thing you wish you could do for your mom? I don’t know, everything. No I don’t know. Buy her a big mansion so she can be happy.
  4. What does your mom deserve more than anything in the world? Love
  5. Do you thank your mom for everything she does for you? No, but I wish  did
    1. (If No) Will you start to now? Yeah
  6. Do you know what you would do without your mom? I would be a completely different person
  7. What does the word mom mean to you? Unconditional Love
  8. Would you change your mom? Hell No!

Twenties

  1. Are you close with your mom? Yes
  2. What’s one word you would use to describe your mom? Outgoing
  3.  What’s one thing you wish you could do for your mom? Not sure
  4. What does your mom deserve more than anything in the world? Happiness
  5. Do you thank your mom for everything she does for you? I thank her a lot
  6. Do you know what you would do without your mom? I would live with my father
  7. What does the word mom mean to you? The kinder and nurturing parental figure
  8. Would you change your mom? I’m sure there are things that could be changed but I wouldn’t need her to

Thirties

  1. Are you close with your mom? Yeah
  2. What’s one word you would use to describe your mom? Evil haha at least that’s what everyone says
  3. What’s one thing you wish you could do for your mom? Make her like her husband haha
  4. What does your mom deserve more than anything in the world? New knees
  5. Do you thank your mom for everything she does for you? No
    1. (If No) Will you start to now? No
  6. Do you know what you would do without your mom? No
  7. What does the word mom mean to you? Giving birth
  8. Would you change your mom? No! haha you want my neck broken?

Forties

  1. Are you close with your mom? Yes
  2. What’s one word you would use to describe your mom? Wonderful
  3. What’s one thing you wish you could do for your mom? Make her be pain-free
  4. What does your mom deserve more than anything in the world? Happiness
  5. Do you thank your mom for everything she does for you? I like to think I do but I know I don’t always
    1. (If No) Will you start to now? Yes
  6. Do you know what you would do without your mom? Be very lost
  7. What does the word mom mean to you? Someone who loves protects and always cares
  8. Would you change your mom? No

For me yes I would say I’m close with my mom! I would describe her as amazing. I wish I could help her more, she does so much for me and I feel like I wil never be able to repay her for all she does. My mom deserves to be happy and love in the way she’s always imagined. No, I don’t thank her enough, but I’m going to try, but no one is perfect. I know I should thank her but sometimes things like that fall out of thought. I have no idea what I’d do without my mom. She is my rock and if she wasn’t around when I needed her I’d probably fall apart. Mom means that there is someone there to protect you, provide for you, catch you when you fall, and never let you lose sight of what is important in life. And Never in a million years would I ever change her! My mom is the most important person in my life. She has been my best friend since day one. She always supports me, even if I make mistakes. She knows I have dreams and ambition and isn’t afraid t go on this journey with me until I get there. I know sometimes our relationship isn’t perfect, but I wouldn’t want it any other way. I love that I am my mom’s personality, her heart, her love, and her dreams. I love her, and all of the mom’s in my life so much. Every one of them meaning something different to me. But above all my mom is the best to me! I wouldn’t trade her for anything in the entire world, I love every single crazy moment I spend with her! I love you Momma, Always Always! Happy Mother’s Day, even though I love you every other day too!

To My Best Friend

She’s been my best friend in the entire world for as long as I can remember. I can text her about anything and she’ll always respond within minutes. She’s been with me through every weird phase of my life I’ve gone through. Every heartbreak, every success, every failure, every disaster, and every blessing. Honestly she is one of those blessings. There isn’t a day that goes by and she doesn’t try to make me smile.

But the weird thing is that she looks up to me. I need her more than anything, but I’m the person she’s aspiring to be. To her my life is perfect. She thinks I have the perfect body, the greatest friends, amazing hair, she thinks I’m super smart, and that I know where I’m going in life. This may be surprising to her, but everything she loves about me isn’t how it looks. I wish she felt that way about herself, because to me she’s the perfect one. I struggle everyday with confidence and faith in myself, and she walks around like she owns the damn world. I never admit to her that I’m scared of anything, but really I don’t have to. She knows but never lets me find out, and just offers her advice in a sneaky way. I can not even begin to explain how thankful I am for this girl. She came into my life with no warning, turning my entire world upside down… and that began the best part of my life.

Being her big sister has made me into the woman I am today. All those years of playing school and letting me be in charge taught me that I wanted to be a teacher. Those busy nights of babysitting that taught me that I want to be a mom. And those endless moments of laughter that taught me how to live fearlessly, honestly, and true to who I am. She helped me find myself, and for that I will always be grateful.

When your the only girl in a group of guys

I absolutely love my best friends, but they’re all boys, and that can get very lonely. Don’t get me wrong hanging out with these boys is one of my favorite things to do. But sometimes you just wanna talk about make up, or clothes, go shopping, get your nails done… girly things my boys are not interested in. But there are things that benefit you when your the only girl..

  1. Choosing where we eat: This is a great power of being the only girl for two reasons. The first is when you want something they often don’t say no because it’s something that will make you happy so they’ll feel less guilty when they ignore you to play video games later. The second is if you don’t wanna pick you can use the excuse that “they’re the men they should make the decision” works every time.
  2. Having chosen big brothers: I live in a family of three girls and I’m the oldest, so sometimes having that big brother figure to talk to is great. They offer any advice you need and it’s especially great when it’s a boy issue.
  3. There’s little to no drama: When your the only girl in the group of boys there’s never anyone trying to out do you. You could look like complete crap one day and you’ll still be the best looking one 😉
  4. Dirty Jokes are always welcome: Sexual references, dirty jokes, and personal burns are a daily occurrence in the guy world. So as a girl in that group you can openly just say these things and not be looked at like your crazy.
  5. They don’t ever judge the amount of food you eat: As a girl who loves food, boys are always up for a 10pm taco bell run with you.
  6. They’re like a thought vault: You can literally tell them anything your thinking, whether it’s about your personal life, or just something silly, boys don’t talk. Even if you were talking to them about their best friend, their lips are sealed.

I love all three of my boys, and we may cause a ruckus when we all three are together, But I wouldn’t trade any of these goofballs for anything. They are my best friends, and I’m super lucky to have them.

What my children will never experience

*Disclaimer: I love my parents, and this is no way against them. I am extremely grateful for the life I’ve been given because without all of my challenges I would not have become the strong, independent, young woman I am.

When you have divorced parents, parents that were never married, or just parents with a strained relationship dating can be a hard thing. You have little to no solid example of a successful relationship. I am one of these people. Often we enter relationships with the mindset that it probably won’t last and if it has the potential to last, we’ll go through with it feeling uncertain waiting for that straw to break the camels back, but that’s never stopped me from putting my self out there, searching for love, and trying to get a grasp on what it really feels like. If you happen to find that special someone who is a child of divorce, separation,or any type of break up, here are some things you gotta know. Most days I wish my boyfriend understood what some of these things feel like, but if he’ll never understand the feeling personally, at least I can try to explain.

    1. Honesty is the most important thing…even if it’s something we don’t want to hear. Never be passive-aggressive about anything and just keep it to yourself. We understand that bottling it all up can end up in disaster, rage, and spontaneous choices, so we’d rather you keep the peace by laying it all out on the table in a calm conversation. We’d gladly love to hear what you have to say, especially to avoid unnecessary tension and arguments.
    2. Next is commitment. Actions speak louder than words , which is why it’s important to be sure that you’re committed when entering a relationship with us. Fluffy nicknames and promises will be empty in our eyes, We want to feel the love daily, to make sure that it’s still there.
    3. Just Talk to us. The more you communicate, the easier it is for us to get to know who you really are, and once you feel comfortable let us into your heart, When you can open up is when we will also start to. We’d like you to be straightforward because it makes the relationship comfortable and balanced.
    4. We’ll be very loving. You’ll find that people like me will always want you to feel loved by keeping the spark in the relationship bright. We’ll freely give all our love and affection as a constant reminder of how much we love and care for you. And if you don’t reciprocate it or show appreciation we may begin to feel distant and unloved. So just show you love to us as much as you can.
    5. We’ll take care of you. We’ve taken good care of our parents during their times of pain, as well as our younger siblings. Those days where mom was at work and dad wasn’t around we may have had to step up into the role of parent. so we’ll do the same for you. We’ll be the first to buy ibuprofen when you feel a head ache coming on or send you funny memes via text whenever you’re going through a bad day. Maybe even cook you some food.
    6. We over-think things. Even if things are going right, we can’t help but be in doubt and in our head about every single thing. We’ll almost always think a little too deeply into things like harmless teasing or neutral statements or even one letter texts, don’t even get me started about those obviously generic tweets.We instantly think the worst and in turn can hurt not only ourselves but also you.
    7. We put effort into dating. We want you to feel appreciated, loved, and like your the luckiest person in the world so we’ll put a lot of thought into our dates and gifts for you, never minding going an extra mile to be romantic. We don’t want you to feel neglected because we understand that feeling all too well.
    8. We like confrontation. Seriously. Confrontation helps us to tackle any problems in a relationship and find a solution. Honestly our relationships feed off of arguments. We will get mad at the stupidest thing and end up causing a huge fight (see over thinking again haha) but It reassures us that the relationship will last, get through it, and helps us improve ourselves.
    9. We never want to put a child through this. I feel that this is the most important thing you need to know. MY child will never know what if feels like to go between homes, they will never know what its like to hear both sides of their parents story, they will never have to pick sides and then be made to feel guilty when the other parent isn’t happy, and they will NEVER ONLY HAVE ONE PARENT IN THEIR LIFE! If we’re going to marry and have children one day I don’t want them to feel any of these things. I deserved so much better than this, and my child is no different. So unless your in it for the long run take a hike.

I never want my child to know what any of these things, I just want them to be happy children without a care in the world about their parents relationship! That’s my biggest dream, to have children with the man I love and live happily ever after….. finally.

 

 

 

 

Tears of Love

The starchy smell of pasta fills this empty soul.

I breathe it in timidly, knowing what tonight has in store.

Red like the roses on the table, my face shows my fear,

a fear that’s lurking deep within my mind.

He sits my dinner in front of me,

alfredo sauce spilling over the edges

like a pool with too much water.

My stomach churning, I eat very little.

Fear of what is coming makes me ill.

He takes my hand for comfort as dinner concludes,

yet the main course still awaits.

More roses this time lying like a blanket,

candles giving off just enough light,

I begin to tremble and choke up.

Am I ready for this change?

He sees the hesitation in my eyes as tears begin to drop like rain.

Like a newborn baby being thrust into a world unknown,

I cry and breathe heavy in a panic.

Feeling scared and safe at the same time,

I fall deeper and deeper.

Nothing can harm me in his arms.

The only comforting thing is him talking me through this.

“It doesn’t have to happen yet,” he says.

If not now, when?

I calm down and decide I’m ready

to change my life forever.

I’m ready to risk everything

to be in this moment with him.

Do I want to let him use the sword

God gave him to

knight me and give me worth?

Should I let him finally make me a woman

in God’s eyes?

With an impulse I go forward

with the plans.

Tears being to trickle from my eyes again

as we finish the task at hand.

Heavy breaths, sweaty bodies,

and soft gazes exchanged, we lay in silence,

unsure of what we feel now.

The thing just occurred has blurred my mind.

Right now the only thing controlling me is my heart,

and the only thing I’m positive of is

that I don’t think I’ll ever love you anymore

than I do in this moment.

How am I celebrating? 

As I’ve said before I will not be with my boyfriend on Valentine’s Day this year 😦 but when I was home this past weekend he took me to dinner and we kind of had our own “fake Valentines Day” as he called it! I love getting him valentines and I put a lot of thought into it every year. This year I came up with a super cute idea! For the last four years I’ve handmade him a Star Wars love pun card, so this year I took the puns a step forward.

I purchased a bottle of whiskey that I knew he wanted to try.. And boom instant cute Valentine after I dressed it up a bit! I also got him a cheap pair of silk valentines day boxers from Walmart because he loves them for some reason, and I tied them to the bottle! It was super cute and easy and he’ll enjoy it for awhile!

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As for my roommate, neither one of us will be with our boyfriends, so we decided to have a date night together. We’re going to go out to dinner together, and then just have a nice night waiting for The Walking Dead to return so it should be fun! For her valentine this year I made her a little arrangement as well as a card like I do every year. This year I included Hershey kisses in it! I hope she likes it 🙂

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My Top Three Favorite Valentines

So Ive gotten many valentines over the years but my current boyfriend has been on point with everything he’s done for my favorite holiday so I would tell you about my three favorite things he’s ever done for me on valentines day.

Third Place: is Valentines day 2012. We were not yet dating but that was because I wouldn’t say yes to him just yet because I had a lot going on in my life. That year He gave me his class ring… now I know that may sound cliche but there was a reason. Prior to us being interested in one another when we were talking just as friends I had shown him a list I created that had things my dream man would do, and spoiler getting his class ring was on that list. Now I don’t remember nor do I have that list, but five years later I still have that ring and around this time every year I begin to wear it because it reminds me that he loved me even before I knew it. 

 Second Place: is Valentines day 2014. Here we were approaching our two year anniversary so he know me pretty well. I was in utter disbelief when he presented me with this gift and your probably going to question why this isn’t my number one. In 2014 he got me tickets to see Bruno Mars for valentines day. This is a big deal for many reasons, one being that he hates pop music so him being willing to go was the first amazing part, not to mention how much they cost. I was so excited when the concert finally came around 5 months later and we had an amazing time together.

First Place: is Valentines day 2013. We were seniors in high school and had been together just shy of a year. That year he actually had a school field trip on valentines day so we started a tradition of celebrating on the 15th, but when I got to college that got messed up too… anyway so Since I couldn’t participate on actual senior skip day because of extracurricular rules, we decided to skip school on the 15th and he took me to the mall, we got to have lunch together, do some shopping, and then we went to build a bear. We each made a bear that we felt represented ourselves. Then when we were done we gave them to one another so that when I left for college we could both have a piece of each other to hold every night. I think this stands as my favorite valentine ever because it means so much to me. Here I am three years later and I’ve only slept without that bear a handful of times, and all of those time when I didn’t have the bear I actually had my boyfriend. IMG_0884

Valentines aren’t always about the money you spend, theyre about the heart you put into them. That bear has a piece of my boyfriend inside of it, and I carry that with me wherever I go.

 

Date Ideas

I don’t know why I’m going to try to make date suggestions because my boyfriend never actually go one dates, but I’m certainly going to tell you anyway because it’s my blog and I do what I want. So here’s a few date ideas that you could use 🙂

  • Going to see a movie
  • or staying in and watching an old favorite movie
  • Getting dressed up and going out to eat just the two of you
  • Staying in and cooking together
  • Trying something completely new together like and activity or type of restaurant
  • Going bowling or roller skating or Ice skating (i really want to try ice skating)
  • if your dorks like us play some video game together (and maybe let your girlfriend win)
  • Go on your first date again
  • Do something childish like playing with Legos or coloring/finger painting together

There are tons of options those are just a few of my favorites to do with my boyfriend when we actually try to have date night. They are all super simple and guarantee a good time with your love one 🙂